but also because of the fact that i felt really alienated
I was the only person of color there
which is fine because this is portland and thats how shit here rolls
but the fact that all these white punks kept staring
and wouldn’t stop staring until i looked at them
like hello? haven’t you seen a black girl at a show before?
Why don’t you try talking to me instead of acting like a silly teen too afraid to talk to someone you have a crush on
and i thought about something that a good friend of mine who is white and not from oregon told me
" Being a person of color in the punk/diy scene here is gonna be weird for you. Every damn white person is gonna be lusting after being your friend because of the fact that you are black/latina. you are a rarity and they know that and thats fucked up"
I didn’t realize this until i got home and angrily ranted about it to my life partner.
It was by far the most uncomfortable house show experience I’ve ever had…..
I’m still really upset